Horse-Blinders

WRITTEN by Albert Progodich

Sometimes it's necessary to take a moment or two to realize how ridiculous my comparative

self has been over the years of trying to be extraordinarily creative within care for comparison.

Now I'm not saying this person is to be shamed or feel guilty for feeling this way because

simultaneously I'm grateful for this awareness, but from a general sense, I can't imagine how

much further along the journey I'd been if I embodied "fuck what everyone else is doing I'm

gonna do me" over an extended time. Easy in words hard in actual practice. I love it, I love

feeling obsessively inspired to create, to contribute, and to make something unique. But we all do, and this is where there's a common roadblock.

This overwhelming feeling drove me nuts until I began to explore an alternative way to

navigate these overwhelming emotions. Meditating like a monk, doing Wim Hof-type

breathwork in parks with people looking at me like I'm hyperventilating, throwing in the

towel, and stepping away. I was convinced to conquer the noise of perfectionism. 

After all this experimentation, what did it do for me? A deep state of boredom began a breakthrough of discovery. There comes a point of a creative block that is really like a reflection period where you don't even think about creating but rather roam on the idea of why you're not doing it.

This is where the champagne activates. Under the layers of thousands of thoughts firing

there's a stillness of an open canvas that invited me to create out of place within myself that

wasn't at all related to any form of validation or approval or comparison. It's a place of flow

and really feels like.. oxygen. There's this sacred place within all of us that when we are able to

navigate this overwhelming noise and see it from a bird's eye view, there's a state of hyper-

intelligence that kicks in. It's where my ideas and conversation topics carry for hours and

hours with little to no thought, it's a form of channeling source, god, your higher self,

whatever you wanna call it personally. But it exists, and instead of running from it, let it

happen and watch what changes happen in your life.